I really did try the universal loving- kindness practice this week, but I could not let go of my mind noise long enough to release the anger from the injustices I received these past months. During my assessment I had no problem finding that aspect of my suffering, which currently is Kaplan University. The school affects my worldly line of development, and then snowballs down to the remaining three lines of development. I even tried to replace the practice words with “good things come to those who wait”, but the noise still would not go away.
You see, I was very excited when I believed I received my Bachelors in Business Administration in August 2011. The school advisors admit their error when they signed me up for my last three classes a term ahead of time, but I should have had four. When I called the school in mid October, they informed me I had six credits remaining to complete my degree. By this time I missed out on a good paying job because I would not pass the background check, nor did I qualify with the only requirement they needed me to have, a bachelors. After Kaplan placed an additional 26 credits on my degree plan, when I only needed six, the advisors and the register and credit office assured me this wellness class would go with my business degree plan. It took the school five weeks to clear things up, then tell me they signed me up for the wrong class, and I will have to go an additional term again.
Twenty more weeks of school for nothing, they admit it was all their error, but I still have no diploma. I will not see it for nine months after I originally should have graduated, and they expect me to trust them. The school admits it's all their fault, but I have to pay the consequences. I am having difficulty finding work, paying bills, keeping a roof over my head and food in my stomach. The Dean and school tell me that they will pay for this class, and I should be happy I will graduate with an extra six credits. I have so much noise that I can't think straight. I figure that it will take a long time to release the anger, injustices, and disappointment of not completing my original goal along with the 3.85 GPA, to develop a consciousness to heal and become whole.
LaVenus
Hello LaVenus, I can totally understand your anger and dissapointment. I would have been quite angry as well. However, If there is nothing you can do about this injustice then you need to find a way to put it behind you as to not damage your health and wellness. Beleive me I can totally understand! I hope you can find a way to let go so that your health and studies will not suffer. Perhaps, when you find this peace it will be easier for you to focus on finding a job. Perhaps, breath work, exercise, and a plan will help you get back on track. Unfortunataly blame will only fuel your anger rather than helping you move forward. I truly hope you find a job and I truly hope you find peace! Good luck...
ReplyDeleteKelly Soper
Hi Lavenus,
ReplyDeleteI want to piggy-back on what Kelly said. As stated, it is not your fault for the huge mistake Kaplan made and even though it is causing you much difficulty, there is always a purpose and a plan for the things that happen. I know it is easier said then done but allow this to be another lesson learned and look at it in a positive way. Maybe this all happened so that you would not take the other job because there is a better one lined up for you in the future. Also, as Kelly said, your health is vital and with the added stress it is definitely not good for you! I hope things all work out for you and that you will be able to stay positive in light of the negative situation at the present time.
LaVenus,
ReplyDeleteI’m so sorry to hear about your experience and how it has delayed you from meeting your objectives. When I was growing up I used to hear the phrase, “What doesn’t kill you will make you stronger.” I never believed it until now. It took me several years, but I have come to terms with those things I am powerless over. All I can do is focus on what is within my realm of control. If the due diligence was done on your end to make things right, then you can rest assured knowing that you have done all you can do. There are also many other factors at work in the Universe that I am totally unaware of. I reconcile these matters by viewing it from the prospective of it all being in Divine order. I might not always like it, but I know that at end of the day all will be well. There’s a phrase I once heard said by Esther Hicks where she says, “Worrying is using our imagination to create what we don’t want.” You are close to the finish line and here is where faith comes in and does for us what we cannot do for ourselves. All the best to you as you plant seeds of success and abundance through education! These life lessons have a way of leaving us forever changed!
Warm regards,
John